eating jellybeans now.
YUMMY (:

younger bro went off to malacca for three days.
the house seems so eeriely quiet now.
sigh.
i guess i kinda missed him. ):
AWWWWW...
i know i'm a NICE sis :D

okay.
i'm too lazy to blog.
toodles.

Always You-Amber Pacific

I'll hold a place for you and I
Inside my heart for you and I
I won't forget these tears I cried
With every year that passes by

And I can't sleep without you
And I can't breathe anymore

Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes

I'll give it up this time again
Some things are better left unsaid
And all I have are lasting dreams
Our word's worth more this time it seems

And I can't sleep without you
And I can't breathe anymore

Good times last forever
I'll keep my heart with yours
For every minute I am gone (I am gone)
Swear you'll never leave me
I'll be there every time
In your heart and in your eyes

In your eyes

when the winds come and they blow
when the rains turn to sleet and snow
when the waters rage at the sea
bitter cold but you warm me
it's for you I walk through a storm
it's for you I lay me down
there is nothing that I wouldn't do for you
when you call I'll be right there
i'll turn my world right around for you
don't you see, don't you see I'm here
only for you I walk through a storm
only for you I lay me down.

today wasn't such a bad day after all. (:

had invitational shoot in the morning.managed to shoot my personal best.please clap for me! :D so we came in first for team event and i got second for individual.WHOA.once in a lifetime when actually my score wasn't that good but who cares? at least i improved and that's all that matters. (:

pw meeting was FUNNN! (: went lalee's house and her youngest sis is so cute but okay that's not the point.everyone was just damn sian at first but we managed to edit our skit and i think it's quite good. (: yayy.after eating lalee's mom's delicious green bean soup we just sat around and started talking.boy am i glad we talked.it felt damn good because we realised we all have the same feelings about the same issues so we talked about annoying people and nice people and bitched about our most loved form teacher and laughed like mad women.heh.never in my whole life have i talk so much to lalee, christy and panty and i'm glad i did. (: because they are such wonderful people and why didn't i realise that earlier? stoopid huixin but nevermind it's never too late.we still have one more year to go and i am not going to waste it. :D and we've decided to all go out together one day with cheryl and boon.so exciting! can't wait! (: managed to find panty's blog and i realised she's as emo as me.haha.i've found another emo partner. (: eh panty for today i'm not emo because you people made me happy so please feel honoured yeah? *winks* thank you so so so much! (:

and before i forget...
I LOVE PANTY!!!! :D

my declaration of love for her.haha.we've got lots of catching up to do on monday! (:

darkness is fading in and darkness is real.

had training today and i'm damn tired. ):

feeling the emoness in me once again.
shit.

i'm tired of running away but it always seems to be the easier way out in fact i enjoy every moment of it but then it never solves anything i hate facing up to reality i hated it because it's always so fucking painful i dread waking up every morning to have to live through the day without you someone please tell me why does it hurt so much i dont want to move on because it's so damn hard and i'm tired of all these shit it doesn't make me feel any better it just make me feel even worse i have no idea why i'm blabbering all these nonsense but i just felt like it the whole point is that i'm feeling really fucked up right now and i miss you so freaking much won't this feeling of missing you lessen any i just can't stop thinking of you the more i try to sort things out the more the tears come the memories spread into different memories through the tears that i shed it makes me cry so painfully all i can do is to regret because all i ever did was receive i'm afraid you'll forget me because i've never given you anything i still love you no matter how hard i tried not to my heart just doesn't listen sigh what should i do now i just want to lock myself in the room stare at mr wall and be depressed forever i'd rather stay this way every single day i'm waiting for a miracle to happen waiting that you will by chance come back to me if i could go back i'd gather my heart i'd take everything from it and give it to you if only i have that chance but will you even know no you won't you'll never know how i feel because i doubt you'd even care i know i'm probably not the one for you anymore and that hurts

i'm torn and i'm loving every minute of being hurt.

being emo is good because it's the only time i feel the real me.

so today's the last day of school.

GREEEEEAT.

sigh.i'll miss cheryl and boon. ):


okay.another quiz.

Dating Strengths	Dating Weaknesses
1. Spirituality - 76.9% 2. Sense of Humor - 71.4% 3. Varied Interests - 71.4% 4. Friendliness - 68.8% 5. Open-Mindedness - 63.6%	1. Appearance - 55.6%

Dating Strengths Explained
Spirituality - Your spiritual side brings you peace and balance, and keeps you grounded. This is attractive, as you can help reinforce this quality in other people. Sense of Humor - Guys are attracted to people with a good sense of humor. Be sure to put yours on display! Varied Interests - You don't limit yourself, and that's a dating asset. Your varied interests make you available and interesting to a wider range of guys. Friendliness - Your friendliness makes you approachable and fun to be around. A wide circle of friends also works to your advantage on the dating scene. Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available guys.
Dating Weaknesses Explained
Appearance - Devoting a greater effort at making good first impressions is a must. Try to be fit and develop a style if you want to catch a guy's attention.
Take the Dating Diversions Latest Online Dating Quiz

whatever.

Once tagged by this entry, the assignment is to write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs. This explanation should be included.

1. i am listening to sexy back now. (: i'm bringing sexy back...lalala...
2. i love adam brody! :D
3. i'm working on my script for my oral presentation for pw.can you believe it? :/ please clap for me. (:
4. i haven't told my mom my results yet. :/
5. i got an A for my current affairs.HAHA.this must be a joke man. (:
6. i don't feel like going church for now.

i tag:
whoever who reads this (:


The Dolphin's Cry-Live

The way you're bathed in light
reminds me of that night
god laid me down into your rose garden of trust
and I was swept away
with nothin' left to say
some helpless fool
yeah I was lost in a swoon of peace
you're all I need to find
so when the time is right
come to me sweetly, come to me
come to me

love will lead us, alright
love will lead us, she will lead us
can you hear the dolphin's cry?
see the road rise up to meet us
it's in the air we breathe tonight
love will lead us, she will lead us

oh yeah, we meet again
it's like we never left
time in between was just a dream
did we leave this place?
this crazy fog surrounds me
you wrap your legs around me
all I can do to try and breathe
let me breathe so that I
so we can go together!

love will lead us, alright
love will lead us, she will lead us
can you hear the dolphin's cry?
see the road rise up to meet us
it's in the air we breathe tonight
love will lead us, she will lead us

life is like a shooting star
it don't matter who you are
if you only run for cover, it's just a waste of time
we are lost 'til we are found
this phoenix rises up from the ground
and all these wars are over

over
over
singin' la da da, da da da
over
come to me
singin' la da da da, da da da
come to me

love this song (:

went vivocity with uncle ziwei today and he treated me to movie. (: YAYY! then we realised today's hari raya puasa so too bad he had to pay more.HAHA.watched the prestige.

MUST MUST WATCH! IT'S A DAMN GOOD SHOW I SWEAR. :D
but it is not highly recommended to slow people like ng ziwei who didn't really get it and needed intellectual people like me to explain to him.HAHA.basically the show keeps you thinking all the time.don't mind watching it again. (: oh and hugh jackman is HOT so that's another plus point. (:

shopped for a short while after the movie and managed to get a cheap shirt from forever 21. (: accompanied him to bras basah complex to get some stencils stuff then went macs to eat and talk and talk and more talking.haha.

basically had a good day.yep.

okay.back to prison break. (:
toodles!

WHAT

001. what bothers you right now?
many many things

002. what is your favorite month of the year?
sweet november (:

003. what was your dream last night?
i got killed in a car accident.

004. what is your greatest fear?
losing my loved ones

005. what was the best thing that happened to you this week?
i managed to get promoted (:

006. what are you planning to do this weekend?
haha.it's the end of the weekend now? just had pw meeting.

007. what can you promise to the one you love the most?
i will always love him no matter what happens.yup.

008. what will you wish for if you had a genie?
adam brody! :D

WHO

009. who is the one you're thinking of right now?
sadly him.it's always him.ARGH.

010. who do you run to when you're down?
God, cheryl, boon and ziwei

011. who are the most influential people in your life right now?
my friends? i've no idea.

012. who was the last person you went out with?
christy, lalee and panty (:

013. who will you call/text later?
whoever who calls or msg me? :/

014. who completes your day?
God

015. who do you want to talk to right now?
him.i want to hear his voice.

WHEN

016. when will you take a bath?
morning and evening

017. when will you watch a movie?
as and when i feel like it? this is retarded. :/

018. when was the first time you fell in love?
hmm...when i was sec 3 i guess.

019. when was the last time you went out with your friends?
today

020. when was the last time you said "i love you" ?
i can't remember.it's been a while since i last said it.

021. when was the last time you read a book?
HAHA.just?

022. when was the last time you asked for help?
ermm...i don't know.

023. when was the last time you kissed your dad/mom?
HAHA.

024. when did you last receive a gift?
can't remember

025. do you easily get attracted to the opposite sex?
not really

026. do you get jealous easily?
nope

OTHERS

027. any people in love with you right now?
how would i know? but i highly doubt so.

028. want to get married?
yupp

029. are you serious when it comes to relationships?
DUHH? i'm dead serious.

030. are you afraid of commitments?
nah

031. do actions speak louder than words?
yeah usually

032. how can you tell if a person loves you?
you can't tell but you can feel.yeah.

033. are you good in handling relationships?
haha.i don't know.

034. are you willing to give everything?
it depends.

035. do you demand your loved one to change into something that pleases you?
no? don't be stupid.i love him for who he is.yup.

036. would you let go of someone you love?
yeah.if that makes him happy.

037. most important ingredient in a relationship?
love, trust, communication, patience? either one.

038. one thing you like about love?
the feeling of loving and being loved at the same time

039. worst thing you did to a loved one?
don't want to talk about it

040. is your heart broken, beating, or taken?
broken but still beating.in the process of healing i hope.

i want to run away.
away from this fucked up life i'm living.


The Good Kind-The Wreckers

Do you want to run away together
I would say it was your best line ever
Too bad I fell for it
And I walked alone
Waiting for you to come along
Take my tortured heart by the hand
And write me off
Do you know I cry
Do you know I die
Do you know I cry
And it's not the good kind
You forced me to become strong
When I just craved being weak
And you think you know
And I would like to think so
But do you know that when you go
I fall apart
I'm tired of hiding
Behind these lying eyes
I'm tired of this smile
That even I don't recognize

phew.i can get promoted.

relieved? yes.
happy? not really.

i have absolutely no idea why. :/

anyway don's parents treated us crystal jade today! :D they are super nice people. (: had fun.yupyup.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DON!! :D

these days i'm just too lazy to blog. :/

anyway finally managed to catch up with hong chin.talked about all my problems and his too though he doesn't have much.haha.then we realised we're quite alike which explains why it's easier to understand each other. (: felt better after talking.yupyup.

i think i'm suffering from insomnia. :(
i hate my eyebags.
UGLY SHIT.

might go shopping with mummy at vivo tmr. :D


Promise-Matchbook Romance

What would you say if I asked you not to go
To forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
Would you take my hand and never let me go
Promise me you'll never let me go

And now the stars aren't out tonight,
But neither are we to look up at them
Why does hello feel like goodbye?
These memories can't replace,
These wishes I wished and dreams I chased
Take this broken heart and make it right

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
You're not making this easy

I never thought I'd be the one to say
Please don't, well please don't leave me

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
You're not making this easy

You're not making this easy (easy, easy, easy...)
Take my hand and never let me go,
Take my hand and never let me go,
Promise me...
You'll never let go
You'll never let go
You'll never let go
You'll never let go
Make this last forever

I feel like I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
I thought you should know,
You're not making this easy

You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
You're not making this easy
I'll fall asleep tonight, 'cause that brings me closer to you

finally lunching with hong chin tmr.(: i owe him lunch for eons man. :/

damn tired now.

shall go watch my dvds first then off to dreamland. (:

for the very first time, cheryl and i prayed for each other today and i thank God for answering our prayers. (: we passed our h1 and even though it's still not enough for me to get promoted, at least there is a higher chance now.almost cried when she's praying for me because i'm super touched by her.haha. (: CHERYL ANG...if you're reading this, i thank God for you and i love you LOADS and LOADS! :D

finished watching princess hours. :D yay! damn nice show.heh.cute and sweet.i love SHIN and YUL! addition to my most loved korean actors.HAHA. (:

oh ya.i got my prison break season 1 dvd alr.ting, you want to borrow just let me know ya? (:


You-The Afters

My heart is as frail as a dove
And my spirit is as weak as a rose
See my sorrow, feel my pain
You're my refuge, You're my reason
My strength in this beautiful place
That's where I find God

You're in my heart, You're in my soul
You are my heaven, You're my home
You're my best friend, You're my true love
You are my treasure, You're my God

I watch as the mountains fall down
And the rivers part at your feet
Your creation sings Your praise
Even wings obey and angels bow down
At Your beautiful voice
That's where I find God

You're in my heart, You're in my soul
You are my heaven, You're my home
You're my best friend, You're my true love
You are my treasure, You're my God

You're in my heart, You're in my soul
You are my heaven, You're my home
You're my best friend, You're my true love
You are my treasure, You're my God
You are my peace, You are my joy
You are my Savior, You're my God

my cramps is killing me.

my heart is greatly burdened.

feel like dying.

ARGH-

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i don't know why it still hurts so much.

i really don't.

thought i had already moved on but there's always something that holds me back.

sigh.

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FUG.

I AM PROBABLY GOING TO GET RETAINED.

i'm too depressed to blog.


Your Guardian Angel-The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Your Call-Secondhand Serenade

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
I'm listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take while you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home x4 ( I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

guess what?

I'M FREE!!!! whee!!! =D

i'm happy beyond description. (: can watch all the dvds for all i want and SLACK SLACK SLACK! yayyyyyyyy! okay.i'm going nuts.haha. (:

anyway lit was fine.slightly towards the bad side but who cares? the point is it's OVER.haha.i want to enjoy life first before hell descends which is pretty soon.wednesday's the doom day.getting back my H2s. :/ God bless me.

so actually i'm left with only tmr to enjoy myself.oh yes.i've got no chinese mock so i do not have to go school.HAHAHA.life is good man.dang good. (: i take delight in people's misfortune.i'm a sadist shit but i can't help it.heh.

plans for tomorrow:
1. going queensway to shop with dawnnie though i'm really broke.
2. going library to borrow books with dawnnie.
3. going dawnnie's house to read all her trashy mags.
4. pussycat dolls and more pussycat dolls.dawnnie insists that i watch their videos cos' they damn hot.okay.whatever.haha.

so basically it's a date with dawnnie.just the two of us. (: i'm sure she's waiting in anticipation now.hahaha. (:

date today with ah yao, nut, joanne and dawnnie's GREAT! (: had a lot of fun.yupyup.went pepperlunch then vivocity then we just emo-ed and talked nonsense while watching the sea.(: vivocity's the next esplanade man.great place to hang out.there's almost everything there lah and forever 21 there is HUGE.bought a necklace from there today. (: but the best thing is it's so near my house! :D anyway i love you ppl LOADS! (:

TECKJIN ROCKS TECKJIN ROCKS TECKJIN ROCKS TECKJIN ROCKS TECKJIN ROCKS!

toodles! (:

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i'm done with the oc finally.season 3's rather grim.sad sad sad. ):

last paper tmr and i'll be liberated. (: have a date with lovely nut, yueqi, dawnnie and joanne.woohoo! can't wait to see them! miss them loads. :D

awake-secondhand serenade

With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.

And you're lying real still,
but your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
that's three that have passed, one more's fine.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

I'm trying real hard not to shake. I'm biting my tongue,
but I'm feeling alive and with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won. You're my key to survival.

And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you. Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breathe, it is dear. So please stay near.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

Say my name. I just want to hear you.
Say my name. So I know it's true.
You're changing me. You're changing me.
You showed me how to live.
So just say. So just say,

That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY REN!! :D



i think my mom and bro are very cute. (:

anyway today's haze is damn bad.the air is so polluted i could hardly breathe. x(
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eve, the apple of my eye-bell x1

You left it, I sent it
I want it back
You left it, I sent it
I want it back

If I had you here, I'd clip your wings
Snap you up and leave you sprawling on my pin
This plan of mine is oh so very lame
Can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

You left, I died,
I went and you cried
You came, I think
But I never really know
I've served my time
I've watched you climb
The wrong incline
But what do I know

Accept it, Don't let it
Turn the screw
Accept it, And let it
Scream back at you

Now this applies both equally to you and I
The only thing we share
Is the same sky
These empty metaphors
They're all in vain
Like can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

In the garden Snake was a charmin'
And Eve said let's give it a try
Now lead us not into temptation
But no matter how hard I try
When in the garden and
Snake is a charmin'
And Eve says let's give it a try
Eve is the apple of my eye

And I lie behind you
And a cradle you in the palm of me
And I pat your hair down
I think will we sink or swim?
'Cause we could do either on a whim

i love this song (:

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SHIT.MY HAIR IS TOTALLY SCREWED.it's damn short and i look really retarded. ):

don't feel like going school tmr.i should just hide at home and watch all my dvds.not a bad idea afterall.i can't face the world with my hair like that. ):

made my first visit to national skin centre today.haha.cheryl ang had an appointment and since i've got nothing much to do, i accompanied her.wahh.the consultation fees was nuts.the doctor didn't even say much and you'd have to pay $40-$60? so i asked cheryl to ask the doctor how much does his "hello please take a seat" cost.HAHA.i was just being retarded. (:

yay! got new shows to watch. :D

1. the break-up
2. pirates of the caribbean 2
3. brokeback mountain

thanks to cheryl.wheee! i love her! :D


now you know why i love my family? cos' we're all NUTS! (: haha.i've got a hilarious family. (: i looked retarded so i'm not posting my picture up.HEH.

koped from ting (:

Seven things that scare me:
1. losing my loved ones
2. getting retained
3. cockroaches
4. going to hell
5. that my boobs will never grow.hi 5 ting.mine don't seem to be growing too ):
6. getting really obese judging at the rate i'm eating :/
7. not being accepted

Seven things I like the most about myself:
1. i'm usually happy.well at least i try to (:
2. my wonderful family :D
3. my lovely friends (:
4. my tiny handwriting.haha.
5. i move on quite easily.not that i want to but i have to because it makes life much easier.i don't really like to dwell in the past.
6. that i'm a christian and that i have God who loves me so much (:
7. that i am ME

Seven most important things in my room:
1. bed+pillow+bolster+blanket
2. handphone
3. aircon
4. phone charger
5. fan
6. mirror
7. bible

Seven random facts about me:
1. i am currently in love with adam brody :D
2. i don't comb my hair.
3. i am allergic to prawns.
4. i don't pack my bed unless my dad forces me to.
5. i sucked in maths.
6. my walls are pink.man i really want to repaint my room :(
7. i love to read (:

Seven things I would like to do before I die:
1. meet adam brody in person (:
2. read the whole bible once
3. share the gospel to my mom, dad and elder bro
4. travel aound the world
5. get married and have kids (:
6. tell my loved ones that i love them a lot
7. lose weight.be hot and tanned so that i can wear a bikini.HAHA.okay this is retarded.i have much more meaningful stuff to do :/

Seven things I can do:
1. breathe
2. laugh :D
3. smile (:
4. slack
5. eat
6. sleep
7. watch korean dramas for 24 hours

Seven things I can't do:
1. sleep for more than 12 hours
2. be angry for long
3. sit still
4. be really mean to people
5. become fairer
6. draw
7. fly

Seven things I say the most:
1. shit
2. this is damn irritating/annoying
3. asshole
4. oh my goodness...are you serious?
5. wah lao
6. you can just go knock your head against the wall
7. i don't know

Seven most favourite celebrities:
1. adam brody :D
2. jesse metcalfe
3. hugh jackman
4. mike shinoda
5. eva longoria
6. jessica alba
7. kate hudson/rachel bilson/sophia bush/heidi klum/giselle bundchen/jennifer aniston/mischa burton/jay chou/song seong hun/lee dong gun (anyone of them)

Seven people I would like to see do this:
anyone (:
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it's been eons ever since i've blogged.stoopid com crashed but thank God it's working again. (:

anyway i finally watched john tucker must die! :D the ending sucked.thought he would be with the kate girl but oh well JESSE METCALFE IS HOT STUFF. (: sizzling hot! throughout the whole show we're just oggling at his hot bod and he is damn cute.goofy goofy kind of cute (: our money is well spent i must say. (: HAHA.

i'm done with oc season one and two.starting season three (: